Did you know that when you encounter a person, place or thing you can pick up the energy of what you've encountered?

As we continue on with social distancing and sometimes unbearable restrictions, political strife and racial tension I have to ask...how are you holding up? As for me, I find my emotions ranging from anger to compassion, confusion and often to slight depression.

After twenty-two years of marriage, I divorced in 2002. We were high school and later college sweethearts. He was actually the only man I’d ever really known and trusted at that time; he was my hero. Learning to stand on my own and provide for myself was foreign to me. I was terrified, but knew I had to push through my fears, I had to learn to let go of who I was (a wife), and work on becoming who I am today. But for many years I lived with anger, self-doubt, and trust issues

After contemplating my attitude, I started thinking about my actions. What was I doing (daily) that brought about the hostility and anger I felt. It occurred to me that I was watching the news daily, reading political opinions, and absorbing conflicting information about the pandemic and the economy. It was too much to take in. I had to shut everything off, meditate and pray.

I finally asked her what she thought was preventing her pursuing the possibilities. She thought of numerous flaws and imperfections she had noticed about him. I smiled to myself and recognized my dear friend had buried her heart and was now "Standing Guard". Ensuring nothing (or any man) would penetrate her barrier again.

There's a country song by Miranda Lambert released in 2009 that takes us through a life journey of struggles, disappointments, success, and celebrations. All these events and emotions have the singer reflecting on her beginning, where it all started for this lost lady. She looks back to her formative years to try and understand who she is, and who she has become.